valmora | Hanukkah 7: rj

paper under his fingers smooth sharp edges smeared ink under his thumb. mark on his skin when he looks, black-purple. looks at the files over his desk, labeled Student Profile and Form 2C and rj thinks he has no clue what he’s doing, never going to be worth it doesn’t really want to do this. run away and join the circus laughs bright at the thought pulls his sleeves down further over his wrists black mesh. the cloth smooth on his fingers easy does it lost a shirt once to tearing.

doesn’t know why he’s doing this easy to lose to forget to not want. maybe dozes off a little, pen scrape on the paper eyes shut thoughts on the day on tomorrow. german essay for friday have to do it later thinks of herr v poster on the wall laughing between him and herr v and sandy and roger, sandy curled up over the desk. just sitting. in german classroom after the bell not waiting for the bus. ride home with roger maybe has forgotten now heavy sandy leaning on his shoulder heat of his hands voice in his ear hiding something rj? throwing him off angry angry not because it’s true not hardly but gross. dirty mind sandy roger no help laughing. left turn.

thinks jessa with the girlfriend pda in the halls two of them no personal space kissykissy sandy just annoyed at the roadblock and rj following him aside embarrassed.