valmora | [YASHA] for i have tired of silence (Sei/Moichi, PG-13)

YASHA the j-drama, ~180 words, Sei/Moichi, characters not mine and no profit made, PG-13, takes place during the searching scene of Episode 5.

(if you haven't watched this series, you are MISSING OUT.)

Seeing Moichi calling for him, playing desperately at that whistle in hopes of finding him, Sei wants nothing more than to fall weeping to his knees, to beg Moichi’s forgiveness as he would beg before no one else, to press his cheek to Moichi’s thigh, his belly, his shoulder. Moichi always smells of wood-lacquer, from his hours in front of the piano, and of honey, and Sei’s tongue burns with his name. His hands shiver with wanting to open the door of the van and run to him, to hold Moichi again and truly, truly never let go.

But he can’t. Not – not if he wants Moichi to be safe. Even though he feels like his heart is bleeding out into his chest and will leave bruises there as a reminder. Even though the curve of Moichi’s lips, parted for breath, makes Sei want to kiss him until everything is gone because Sei will have forgotten the value of everything but more, more and Moichi’s pleasure.

Moichi passes the car, and Sei trembles with relief and despair, watching him in the mirror.